My attempts of self inspiration, have, of late, sarted to backfire. Something I feared, in the back of my mind ever since I resulted to having to indulge in such exercise. Some moments in my life are spent telling myself how corny I am to absentmindedly repeat things to myself.
At times i find myself wanting to give up even thinking optimistically. Quickly I bring myself back to par, only because I know there are people who need people like me to be around, just to watch, just to borrow the optimism I portray myself as posessing.
Sometimes it all feels so fake, sometimes I'm discouraged because things get stuck more often than never. I wish sometimes that I wasn't such a fake person. Wish I could be more genuine, but then again I think that'd mean crouching in a corner in the dark and crying most all of the time.
This is much better I suppose.
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Same. Some people think I'm very much in control and look up to me for that and other reasons, but I feel fake because I don't always feel that way. Sometimes when I brainwash myself to act fake, I eventually will become that way, so it's not fake anymore, is it? haha
ReplyDeleteThat's exactly what happens we try so hard to convince ourselves to be a certain way, that we naturally adopt this act, and it becomes part of us. No longer being an act. That's why determination and perserverence is so important in being sucessful. I guess..hehe
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