Wednesday, March 19, 2008

It's Sick!

Sick! I've been sick for like a month. It all started when I went wall climbing in late February. I was looking up at the rope and some shit fell into my eye. I dont know whether it was chalk, or rope debris, or maybe it was just my eyelash. Doesnt matter coz the next day, green shit kept coming out of my eye, made me see things all blur. As if life doesnt already do that to me! What a drag.

So I try to get rid of the shit, but it keeps coming back every 3 and a half seconds! After about an hour of constantly rubbing my eyes out. It turns red and I start involuntarily crying out of one eye!

I slept on it and the next day, my eye is still red, so I go to the doctor, and he gives me eye drops.

Love the eye drops. Day after that, my eye is better again! No more green shit coming outta my eye! My joy lasted about another hour before my other eye started turning red.


It takes another day to get rid of the red eye thing, which was then replaced by severe sore throat! Which lead to irritation which caused a coarse cough. I went to the doctor again, and he gave me all these pills to take etc.

Coughs never go away! After two weeks of profusely coughing, I get this horrible stomach pain, which, luckily lasted only 18 hours flopping over in my bed.

Last week I was finally relieved that all the viruses had gone away, and I'm finally back to my old self again, and this morning, I wake up and my nose is sniffy. And I feel a cough coming up.

Please not again! Leave me alone!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Thursday, March 06, 2008

A Love Letter

You're right my darling, the past will never leave. Your past, my past. It'll always be there. Your past has made you who you are, just as my past has made me who I am. Through you I am trying to accept that.

I have pictures, just as you do, the ones of my past, the beautiful scenery, with another person in the foreground. Just as you see her as just a moment in past, and never in the present.

It is hard to live in this life. With so many variables in the air. So many things to be afraid of. But when reality comes into focus, I, myself have to be rise above all of that.

You and I are together now. You have chosen me, and I have chosen you. Can I do my best to make it work? Isn't but my own choice to stay or to leave? I believe that God has put us together, and he will seperate us if it is meant to be so. If you try, I will try harder. If I try, it is my only hope that you will try harder.

For only when we put effort into our relationship, will it progress successfully. People will only leave you, if you let them, if you didnt put all your effort into making them stay.

I dedicate my life and my love to you.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

My Support Systems

Man... I really dunno what to say... all I can say is is this what you want? After all the disappointments and the heartaches? As long as you can say yes... then it's really up to you to do something about it. I can only show you support with whatever decision you make.

Please don't cry. It breaks my heart to know that you cried and I'm not there to comfort you. But crying is good for the soul so cry away. I just wish I'm there when it happens as what you have done for me. *grateful*

*sigh*...What a cruel world we live in. I wish everything works out for the best for you. Love. Career. Future. Family. I hope you can find your true path soon and not to stay on par forever. There's still so much more we can do in this world and I hate for us to waste our lives for something that's not worth it.

You are still young. You still have a couple of years ahead of you. Perhaps you still can make a couple more mistakes before you are forced to grow up. So enjoy life now. Don't be too uptight and upset ok?

Ai... I'm not the right person to give words of wisdoms. Look at the mess I'm in. The thing is... with relationships... we have to play it out the best we can. As long as we know that we have done nothing wrong and have give it our best shot, then there's nothing to regret.

So... keep it all together ok? Be strong and may God bless you.

I'm always here for you.


Tuesday, March 04, 2008

This Is The Best List Yet!

1. Saying "I love you" immediately before, during, or following sex doesn't count.
2. Real men drive stick shift.
3. I will leave if you lie.
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for a minimum of 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when I have no rational reason to think so.
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper in my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
9. I'm terrified of becoming my mother, even though I admire her.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
13. I'm scared of losing my independence.
14. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-doghouse-free card. Manolo Blahnik shoes also do the trick.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)
17. If I'm not having sex with you, I'm... a. ...having a fat day. b. ...not feeling "connected" to you. c. ...blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I own a Debbie Gibson CD, and I'm not afraid to use it.
20. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.
21. A man I love plans the occasional fancy-schmancy dress-up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts love much licking and sucking.
26. If you ask me out directly, I will say yes.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
28. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.
29. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I want to be Madonna.
31. Women get urinary-tract infections easily, so watch (and wash) your fingers.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. Often. Tell me now.
35. Surprises, especially gifts for moi = more loving.
36. I want to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking....
38. Discussion of ex-gf's and ex-bf's should be avoided at all times.
39. I like it when you tell me what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
44. I like porn.
45. I love holding your bum in the palms of my hands.
46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember everything about our relationship.
50. You should know all this and more with-out my telling you.

~taken from CHoPs Myspace~

Me = Definitely an 80's Baby!

You're an 80's kid if:

1. You ever ended a sentence w/ the word "SIKE"
2. You watched Pound Puppies
3. You can sing the rap to "Fresh Prince of Bel Air"
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the babysitters club and tried to start one of your own.
6. You owned those lil Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on "Blossom"
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer
9. If you ever watched Fraggle Rock
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales"
12. It was actually worth getting up on Sat morning to watch cartoons
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head
14. You saw "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen
15. You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class. (YES! Hahaha)
16. You had a clip that held your shirt in a knot at the side
17. You played the game MASH (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
18. You wore a Jordache jean jacket and you were proud of it
19. L.A. Gear... need I say more
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten
21. You remember all of the Ramona books
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"
23. You wanted to be a Goonie
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing (some head to toe)
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson REALLY looked like
26. You ever wondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf
27. You took lunch pals to school
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets (Those really hurt)
29. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence
30. Barbie and the Rockers were your fav band
31. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up
32. You thought your childhood friends would never leave you b/c you exchanged friendship bracelets.
33. You ever owned a pair of jelly shoes (and probably in neoncolors)
34. After Pee-Wee's Big Adventures you kept saying "I know you are but what am I" (First Grade at Tavan)
35. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up" (Hahaha - Clap On, Clap Off)
36. You remember skating before inline skates
37. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip-n-slide
38. You had a Skip-it (LOL!)
39. You had or attended a b-day party at Mc Donald's
40. You've gone thru this nodding your head in agreement
41. "Don't worry, Be happy!!"
42. You wore like 8 pair of socks over tights w/ high top Reeboks
43. You wore socks scrunched down
45. Boom boxes vs. cd players
46. Both Gremlin movies
48. You remember Rainbow Bright and My Lil Pony Tales
49. You thought Doogie Howser was hot!
50. Alf, the furry brown alien from Melmac
51. New Kids On the Block when they were cool
52. Knew all the characters and their life stories on the ORIGINAL Saved by the Bell
53. Know all the words to Bon Jovi- SHOT THRU THE HEART
54. You just sang it to yourself
55. You remember when Mullets were cool
56. You tight rolled your pants
57. You owned a banana clip!