Happy? Unhappy?...Not Unhappy!

I'm very glad that I had the courage to make a change in my life. I felt like I was being trapped by my previous company, conned and trapped.

I guess the further I got into it, the more guilty I felt for getting deeper into it.Perhaps it's because I always had the intention to leave.

From the moment I started, I tried not to judge it, and tried to brainwash myself into thinking that the job had a future that I wanted, but it didnt.

I never felt that it was the place for me to begin with, but it was a professional decision that I had to make when I started. There was nothing I could do. It was a bad case of catch 22! With a result that was expected, one way or another.

I realise that I gave them the impression that I was, as a friend once told me, a "lifer" there. I never had that thought in my mind unfortunately.

Another friend told me that this is life. They took a gamble and lost. Move on.

I know it was bad, but I am happier now. There are so many opportunities here, and I am not unhappy.

I'm not yippie-do-da happy - yet, but I'm not unhappy.

love always

Phew! Things are so busy here, I hardly have time for a breath! I love it! There are so many things to do, I'm glad that I had the courage to take the leap, no let me rephrase, I'm glad that the Lord had given me the strength and courage to change. I knew something was going to happen, I didnt realise it would be so soon. Nevertheless - it's great.

There are still many things that I want to do, and when I had written about Phase 1 of my future goals, I wasnt referring to this.

It's something larger than that. But I'm not going to talk about it, just in case I jinx it...=P

love always
echez

Somethings To Think About

I took this from -aka pong- :

I like it, I mean I dont like like it, I think it's sad and melancholic, but I feel like this sometimes.

"There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not, I want to see you because I miss you but there are times when I don’t want to see you because every time I do, the fact that you don’t see me the way that I see you hurts me even more ..."

"Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You, Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You, Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You, Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You"

Thank You

Something has finally happened! I have moved to a new company! I am so excited! Two and a half years working for one company, and now, a change. It's a little overwhelming, but I love it! I cant wait for more things to happen! It's so exciting! I have so many people to thank! Most of all I thank the Lord! For taking charge of my life, for leading me to where I am now, for bringing me here, and for providing everything I could ever ask for.

I am very grateful. Very grateful.

Owwwww! I feel good! na-na-na-na-na!

No idea where that thought came from. Guess that song got stuck in my head. Which brings me to an old anecdote.

In college, my roommate and I use to keep the PC on in the room all the time, downloading stuff and etc. So one day we downloaded this alarm thingie, which starts playing a song as the alarm. I always told my roommate that I wanted a nice soothing song that I could sing to coz in the morning, I'd start singing the song in my head, and I'd become conscious and thus awake.

We tried a few songs, some worked, some didnt. But one fine morning at approximately 7am, blasting loud, I hear "Owwwww!I Feel Good"

I got up threw a pillow vigorously across the room, and got really pissed, then went back to sleep.

It scared the shites outta me! I was like WTF? Took me a few mintues to realise that I wasnt being attacked by aliens trying to abduct me.

Never Again