Where Is The Me I Use To Know?

Are we meant to walk the road that we walk today? Was it a wrong decision that brought us here? A spur of the moment choice that took us down this alley, where we see nothing but the dark mystic nothing before us.

The self expectation, the hope and dreams, where have they gone? It has been shadowed by this great darkness. A darkness that has fallen upon the path.

I have always taken the path that I fully believed in, no doubts. But now, this doubt is overwhelming. A complete depletion of the aspiration that I was filled, not so long ago.

I have lost vision of the bigger picture. Am I doing what I really want? Or am I just blindly following? I have never felt so helpless, and useless in my life.

For God So Loved The World

1 John 4:19 We love Him, because He first loved us.

The Lord our Father loved us first. He didn't put in a clause that He'd love us only if we loved Him.

People in life ask, why should I love someone if they don't love me back? God showed us that we should love openly, without an objective, without prejudice.

1 John 4:8 He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

Why do we deprive the people in our lives of love. We are such mean people, we are stingy with our love. We keep it for ourselves, and sometimes we are so consumed that even to ourselves we have no love.

Why should we be such people, when God, who created us, is of pure love, what have we to lose? To love as He has loved us?

Kenangan Terindah

Kenangan Terindah
(The Most Beautiful Memory)

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
(I am weak without you)
Aku yang rentan karena
(I have become vulnerable because)
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
(The love that was lost from you)
Yang mampu menyanjungku
(Could have lifted me)

Selama mata terbuka
(As long as eyes are open)
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
(Until the heart stops beating)
Selama itu pun
(For as long as that)
Aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
(I try to make you happy)

Darimu...
(From you)

Kutemukan hidupku
(I 've found my life)

Bagiku...
(To me)

Kau lah cinta sejati
(You are my one true love)

CHORUS:

Bila yang tertulis untukku
(When what was written for me)
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
(Becomes the best for you)
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
(Then I'll remember you as)
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
(My life's sweetest memory)

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
(It's not easy for me)
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
(To leave those footsteps in my life)
Yang tlah terukir abadi
(They were engraved permanently)
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
(As the most beautiful memories in my life)

~Samsons~

Translation

Lost

So many thoughts as the rain pours heavily outside my window. The breeze is heavy, and holds many secrets.

I wonder to the walls. I wonder of the truth, of the true story behind the people we love most.
What is within, what runs through the mind in the early hours of the morning, in the heat of the afternoon. In moonlit veranda of the sea?

What goes on?

Are hearts ever synchronised? Is there ever a consummation?

I believe that I should move on. To find myself, the one that I momentarily lost to something I thought meant the world to me. Now, means nothing.

As I look deeper and deeper into it, I find nothing. I find that there is nothing there.

I have to look away, just for while, I need to find my path again. It has been lost.

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
mMm

~A.Lavigne~