I'm Sorry

I am honoured and humbled that you can tell me your thoughts, but sad that they are unhappy, sad that I was not there in the flesh to give you the comfort you needed. To say you have no friends is wrong. If I end up being nothing else with you, a friend I will always remain. For all your challenges, you have a strength, passion and outlook on life that inspires me. For meeting you I am grateful and I hope we can keep alive something that we have shared.
~G~

~Ephesians 2:8-10~

"For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them."
~Ephesians 2:8-10~

A Voice That Smiles

A voice that smiles
Like summer sun it warms me
It fills my soul, it replenishes me
It is the sustenance to go on
Belief, Hope one without the other
A mere pebble on the ocean floor
Combined, more power than any man can know
The strength to go forward, to carry on
When all else seems beyond me.
So? Such a small thing?
A voice that smiles?

~naue~

GADDAMNIT

Gaddamnit! You know how sometimes you get your hopes up and gather all your guts and work up all your cowardly courage to say something to someone or to confront someone, and you've finally put your foot down and said to yourself, OK!!! This is it, there's no turning back and you're all siked and pumped up, and then you finally take a step towards this person, and you walk thru the door, and....they're not there. You finally get to dialling the numbers and....it rings and rings and rings...and just keeps ringing...until the woman on the other ends picks up and says "I'm sorry..."and you dont ever stick around to hear the end of the sentence, but you can imagine.

I'm sorry echez, you are such an idoit!
I'm sorry, the number you have called is ignoring you.
I'm sorry, the number you have called is much too busy to answer your call!
I'm sorry!

Yeah, well, I'm sorry too!

What was I thinking? Maybe I wasnt, maybe I dont want to but I should.

Maybe I should be the one to take a stand, I keep asking myself why I always have to be the one to give up what I want for the sake of other people.

*sigh*

I guess it's because I have to take responsibility for the situation that I have put myself into.

I will blame myself and no one else, for getting myself into the position that I am in. I knew it from the beginning, and hey, I made the decision.

Was it worth it? I dont know, is pain ever worth it?

*sigh*

The worst thing is to be alone in pain. Nothing is worth being alone in this world.

joyeux anniversaire

It is time to send a wish out to the people in my life that are getting more the wiser yesterday, today and tomorrow.

I just want to say that you are the one who has participated in my life, who has made a huge part of me alive, and have contributed to what makes me who I am, and I am eternally grateful for the day that you were brought into this world, and to the day that the paths of our souls collided.

My life's quest has been a continual search for that something that triggers my inspiration, and lights up my being and in return sparks, lights and spreads.

That's what you are for me, I cannot tell you why, I dont think I know why, but I know it is.

Red, today, when there is red, you must smile. For Red brings forth prosperity... and then, your one true wish may just come true.

~joyeux anniversaire~