Neutrally Hilarious!!

I was hanging with Zt and HL today after work and we were
talking about everything all at once.

First we talked about how Zt saw FD3 and how she didnt see the first two, and how HL hadn't seen any of them, and how death has a planfor all of us and that if we're meant to die then death
is going to get us...etc etc.

Anyways, we traced ZT's roots and she's most susceptable to diseases. Since she's in between HL and I she's got the worst of both worlds. My side of the family, has a history of diebetes, HL's side, breast cancer.

So she's like, "*sigh* dont talk about death already, we all know that I'm most susceptable to gettin breast cancer, diabetes, plus I have asthma!"

HL brings up that it is debatable whether cancer is genetic or is caused by environmental factors. So I pitch in to explain how smoking causes cancer by killing your cells which means that they need to be regenerated. And in this process millions are killed and need to be reporduced and each cell that has to be reproduced whether it be cells killed by smoking or otherwise, has a chance of mutating from it's original DNA structure. This mutation could be cancerous, which means that it lacks the ability to stop multiplying and thus grows exponentially, out of control which causes a lump, and that is cancer...

In other words, I confused the heck out of the two of them. So again Zt says....yeah yeah yeah I'm gonna get all these diseases anyways.

Then we got into the topic that Bausch & Lomb Renue Contact Lens Solution made this one guy blind, so we shouldn't use that product for awhile. HL argues should the world really completely stop using a product just because one person is affected by it? For all we know the kid could probably have dripped acid on his fingers before he used the solution.

Zt says okay okay, I'm gonna grow cancer and we're gonna have to cut off my breast! Stop talking about this stuff.

EZ - Ya know that if your vagina is too alkaline that you could grow weird bacteria, and then you'd have to cut that off too!

Zt - the vagina is acidic?!

EZ - yeah! and sperm is akaline, did you know your face is not neutral, it's a little more acidic...or is it a little more aklaine...I dunno it's just not neutral.

HL - yeah the vagina is acidic, you know PH7

EZ - PH 7! not that much! you know PH7 is like the acid acid that'll burn a friggin hole in your skin, that's the strongets acid is PH7!!!

Zt - Wahahahahahah, ohhh....so that's why there's a hole there!

HL - ahahahahhaha

EZ - ROFL literally! Wait! wait! I wail!!! PH7 is alkaline laaaaa!!!! PH1 is acidic....ahahahahahah

HL - oh yeah ha...so sprem is alkaline and the vagina is acidic.

Zt - oh! oh! oh! Do you know how how to make neutral?! acid plus alkaline becomes neutral!!waaahahahaha!!!

EZ - hahahahaha...yeah,yeah yeah...and sperm IS alkaline! Haven't you ever felt it before? it feels like soap!

HL - you know have you ever tasted alkalline before? it taste nasty!

EZ - you cant eat PH 7 alkaline it'll burn you just like acid!

ZT - *sticks her tongue out like a lizard* you...you mean you've tried to taste the aciiid....hahahahahha

EZ - you sick virgin you!!! WTF is wrong with you!!

hahahahhaa

Funny, funny night...

*sigh*

People say that when you're scared, you run away...I think I'm running away. I guess it's a self preservation mechanism. As much as I enjoy being with that someone, as much as I hate saying no, as much as I want to see and be with a person all the time. I just cant let myself do it anymore. It's killin me.

People need their space. I can understand that. But it scares me. It's so unnatural that someone would "not" want to see me. Who wouldn't wanna see me? I'm not trying to be arrogant or anything, but I mean, if you like someone, naturally you wanna be with them. Naturally they'd be the first thing on your mind, right?

Correct me if I'm wrong, but if someone says that they're into you, but doesn't contact you for like 2 weeks, even though they aren't very far away, and they could at any moment in time have picked up a phone and called, there's got to be a problem there right?

Either he's just not that into me, or...or...I really dont know....I just dont seem to understand...

*sigh*

echez

The Weekend

Friday - I have this splitting headache when I get home from work at like 10pm. After deciding that I have lots of reading to do for my assignment, there are people that I havent seen for like sooo long, I said to myself...frug it! I'm going to sleep. I slept.

2am I receive a call - En calls me. En! Wow. I never thought that he'd call. I never thought that he'd ever have anything to do with me after what happened years and years ago. When I broke his heart, I never meant for it to happen that way. Then again what was I thinking. It's been 6 years after all, and I met him a few months ago when he brought this gal with him.

I wake up. I'm pretty happy that he calls. I dont know why. Perhaps I never wanted to lose a friend like him to highschool "love". He taught me everything I know about basketball. He taught me about strength.

So I peel myself off my bed, take a shower, brush my hair and his friends and him are at the door. I got home at 4am it was pretty weird. Made me feel young again.heh.

Saturday - I refuse to wake up till 1pm, after all I have no plans today. I get up, pull a book and start reading. I get a call from Ta, the meeting is set for 3pm. Oh shucks! I promised ZT that we'd watch a movie...! shucks shucks shucks!!
I cancel. I dont know wether i was okay with cancelling, after all it's been 2 weeks since I've met Ta.

I hang with ZT. We have a good time. We always have a good time. I dont know what i would do without her.
We watch a chinese movie about breast cancer, it's kinda sad. Really romantic, funny. That's the sorta stuff I like...not breast cancer, romantic comedeous movies. (is that a word).

Anyhow, I get home, and I read 6 books! Okay so they weren't for my assignment, but still.

So Sunday I sleep in again. Till 1pm again. I read - again. And sleep - again. Until Monday, and even so I wake up at 8:45am for work at 9:30am.

So I got lots and lots of sleep. But I dont think I slept comfortably coz when I got up, my neck hurt, and my back hurt. Maybe it's coz with all that sleeping, I forgot to drink water.

I read that if you dont drink enough water your bones are gonna hurt. I guess that must have been it.

I played Volleyball on Thursday last week. It was great. I finally got some exercise. I think I felt much better after exercise. See now I have to exercise more.

I get addicted to exercise sometimes, but pbviously it hasn't happened for like a year, ever since I started working.

So back to the topic, wait what was the topic? Anyways I'm going to play basketball tonight.

Laterz.
Echez

We Are The People

Is the happiness still here? It's been a few days....usually it goes away, usually I think of all the bad things that are going on and I sulk at them and I feel that everything is going wrong.

Is happiness still here? Yes it still is! I'm still happy. But I realise that I have no one to share it with. Who is here to share these wonderful moments in my life? Who really cares that I'm working my arse off, and what I'm achieving. Perhaps my parents, but then again, as long as I'm not emabrassing them or asking them for money, they're happy about everything that I do.

Has my life resulted to dependence on man? Do I always have to have a guy there to share my thoughts with? To share my life with?

No one will ever know me. It's too late for that, there's not one person who has gone through life with me, there's not one person who has been with me through thick and thin, there's not one person who would ever be able to know nor understand me to the root. I feel so spread apart, I dont belong, there's no place for me, in anyone, in any place.

But that's okay, we become accustomed to having no one, or always having people who are going to leave. I cant say that I'm not the independent gal. I also cant say that I dont need anyone, I do need someone, everyone needs someone. Whether it be a guy or a gal. People need other people. I need someone whom I can share my world, and know that they're not going to leave with my hopes and dreams, happiness and pain.

I've given so much of me to people that I trusted would be there for me when I really needed them. Why did they go? Why did they take my thoughts and go?

Dont you know that I gave you all of me? I entrusted you with all my weakness, hoping that you would hold on to them and make me strong. Dont you know that it's gone now. Dont you realise that you have taken it away from me?

So often I have to start again, so often I'm let down. Is there anyone in this world? Anyone there just for me?

echez

The Great

Things are going great in my life. I've never been happier! Things aren't perfect, but they haven't been so great in a long time. Which makes me wonder, does hard work really pay off? Has it worked for me because I had my priorities set straight?

God has definitely helped me get this far.

But what else, of so many things that I f*cked up, I'm surprised that I am able to be here now, being who I am. I guess I shouldn't be questioning happiness. I usually dont talk about my happiness, I fear it will be jinxed. I fear it will all go away. But today I write in happiness.

I cant really explain this feeling. I know that many problems are going to arise, very soon. But today! Today is wonderful! I have no other way to express this.

Work is good, studying is smooth...social life...well...it doesn't matter. I spend so much time and energy to make things work out for me socially sometimes, it's not worth it. Nobody ever realises how much you put into it. Nobody ever realises your pain. Everyone's selfish. Can't blame them.

I think i have given up, and I think it's okay with me.