Just got back from class. It was great! Wonderful! Exciting! I would have never imagined that it would be so interesting, so...me.
Just being int he presence of a group of people who have the same passion, inspiration, and goal to achieve. It's really great. Of course, it is the beginning of a whole new level of learning. There's going to be lots of sleepless nights and major planning and organisation.
One thing that I'm not going to let happen to me is to let this overcome me. It will be part of my life, but it will not consume me. Although I'm going to make major changes in my lifestyle, this course will not change the person that I am. It will not changed my character, and I will not let it affect the social person that I am.
I will take this opportunity to create bonds and ties that I would have never had the chance of doing so had this course not fallen into my life.
The funniest thing happened today. It was pretty amazing. I was in this Merc that one of my MBA mates was driving, we stopped off at a 711 to get some snacks. As we got back and parked this guy jumps out of his BMW, 5 series and enthuastically asks my calssmate what he did to his car because he has the same car and he wants to do the same thing to it. He asks if he could take a picture of the car too.
I started laughing. Apparently the guy followed us just to ask what rims the guy used and everything. Fanatics.
The guy in the BMW turns out to be from the US, and works in the Petronas Twin Towers as the CIO for a major company. The guy looks chinese lookin, and is quite the handsome one, and looks pretty young. Impressive. He was looking into doing a MBA as too, while he's in Malaysia. We recommended the one we were taking.
I'm impressed by his ambition.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Friday, March 10, 2006
Bridges
I had a great day today! I think it may have been one of my best days at work! It was just great, everything was flowing smooth, of all the days, I smiled the most today. Well, other than the memories of wonderful moments with those special people in my life.
If only you were here, you'd know all the things I wanted to tell you, that I couldn't and that I cant because I'd know that it wouldnt matter to you.
Every moment I wonder why I give myself away for you. What happiness do you hold for me? Is the man I see somewhere in between that wealth he seeks?I wonder how a soul like me could ever fit into your material world.I am a girl of gift. To receive on demand is no longer construed a similarity. This world is fake. Of words that mean nothing to their actions.
What ever happened to the marshmallowed dreams of love and life. Of happiness and clouds? Why the sudden thundered sky?
Dictation doesnt suit me well. My man will know that only the pure love for me can end his disheartened fear. I wonder how a hollow heart will grow.
If only you were here, you'd know all the things I wanted to tell you, that I couldn't and that I cant because I'd know that it wouldnt matter to you.
Every moment I wonder why I give myself away for you. What happiness do you hold for me? Is the man I see somewhere in between that wealth he seeks?I wonder how a soul like me could ever fit into your material world.I am a girl of gift. To receive on demand is no longer construed a similarity. This world is fake. Of words that mean nothing to their actions.
What ever happened to the marshmallowed dreams of love and life. Of happiness and clouds? Why the sudden thundered sky?
Dictation doesnt suit me well. My man will know that only the pure love for me can end his disheartened fear. I wonder how a hollow heart will grow.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
MBA
I've finally started my MBA classes! It's great! I love it! I dont know why I never took business before. I didnt realise that it connects so much more to the outside world.
Engineering is something that happens behind the scenes, although it plays a major role in products being produced, it has no direct contact with the people! Products that engineers are designing, manufacturing, and planning major logistics for, people buy it use it and who cares about how much effort it took to make and how many people have actually inspected, rejected and reinspected the darnded thing. Long as in the end, it makes their life easier.
It's no wonder people always ask the question: "Soooo......What does an engineer do again?" or "What does an Engineer actually DO?"
So I went for my first 5 hour class, and the first time since highschool I didnt fall asleep! But not knowing anything about business, not coming from a business background, I feel like a dope, and that there is so so much stuff to learn and read.
I feel especially behind, which makes me wanna scream, and hammer the books into my head. I wish I knew more. Which makes me wonder, do people know all this general knowledge stuff because they have personally encountered it throughout their life, or just so happens that everyone that I talk to has read up and memorised all these things, and I'm 10 years behind?
I mean who remembers stuff like, oh, in 1986 Mc Donalds wanted to expand into India and they couldnt because indian people dont eat meat, especially beef, and so (insert whole marketing strategy here).
Perhpas people in the same industry would know the details, but people who aren't also know! Only I didnt know! What's wrong with me? And the people were like yeah! I saw that in the newspaper like 10 years ago! And I'm like SHIT. How am I gonna compete with people who have read and memorised newspaper articles since 1986? I can barely cope with reading the daily paper now.
I guess that's the difference between school college and friggin post grad studies.
More to come.
Engineering is something that happens behind the scenes, although it plays a major role in products being produced, it has no direct contact with the people! Products that engineers are designing, manufacturing, and planning major logistics for, people buy it use it and who cares about how much effort it took to make and how many people have actually inspected, rejected and reinspected the darnded thing. Long as in the end, it makes their life easier.
It's no wonder people always ask the question: "Soooo......What does an engineer do again?" or "What does an Engineer actually DO?"
So I went for my first 5 hour class, and the first time since highschool I didnt fall asleep! But not knowing anything about business, not coming from a business background, I feel like a dope, and that there is so so much stuff to learn and read.
I feel especially behind, which makes me wanna scream, and hammer the books into my head. I wish I knew more. Which makes me wonder, do people know all this general knowledge stuff because they have personally encountered it throughout their life, or just so happens that everyone that I talk to has read up and memorised all these things, and I'm 10 years behind?
I mean who remembers stuff like, oh, in 1986 Mc Donalds wanted to expand into India and they couldnt because indian people dont eat meat, especially beef, and so (insert whole marketing strategy here).
Perhpas people in the same industry would know the details, but people who aren't also know! Only I didnt know! What's wrong with me? And the people were like yeah! I saw that in the newspaper like 10 years ago! And I'm like SHIT. How am I gonna compete with people who have read and memorised newspaper articles since 1986? I can barely cope with reading the daily paper now.
I guess that's the difference between school college and friggin post grad studies.
More to come.
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Sadness
About people in my life. Sometimes when people get so busy they forget about other people. I can say honestly that I tend to do that very often. I express my deepest apology.
I also realise that many people reciprocate this lack of ability to keep in touch.
This lack of social contact prohibits one to be complete.
Okay okay what I'm really trying to say is : - I'm sad. =(
You can be successful in everything that you do, you can have everything you've ever dreamed of having, everything can be going great, and running smooth, yet....you can be sad.
echez
I also realise that many people reciprocate this lack of ability to keep in touch.
This lack of social contact prohibits one to be complete.
Okay okay what I'm really trying to say is : - I'm sad. =(
You can be successful in everything that you do, you can have everything you've ever dreamed of having, everything can be going great, and running smooth, yet....you can be sad.
echez
Next Step in LIfe
So many things going on, so many hopes, so many things piecing together, so many things falling apart, all at once.
So many choices to make, so many things to consider.
No one here to understand. No one here to realise that beneath everything is just a girl.
Who wandered into wrong room at the wrong time. Who impressed he world with her stories of way and wonder.
My silent Philosophy of life is that if I think about it constantly and make my every move towards my goal. Sooner or later I'm going to get there.
I have been offered a position with a more attractive income, still technical, but a little out of engineering scope. Not much career advancement available. Reputible multinational company. Not engineering position.
My current company is showing advancement, it's getting bigger, and I am playing a part. They are also sending me for a half business, half pleasure trip to the US. There is opportunity for career advancement in this company, to a certain limit. Many new projects in which I can play a major role - maybe. Hopefully they wont keep me stagnant.
A major American company is contemplating whether they want to hire me, attractive position, attractive future benifits and salary increment, start salary almost the same mediocre amount I get now. More challenging job, need brains for this one. Perhaps I need to use some of it anyhow.
*sigh* Which is the wisest decision?
There is no wisest decision. I chose each and everyone of the jobs above, there's no deciding on the one I like best. I like them all. They all have their pros and cons.
Seems like they're all equally good. What should I do?
Daaaaaaaaaadddyyy!!!!!Heeeeeelp!!!!
Thing about asking my dad is that he will not advise, he will dictate. Nevertheless, his advice is important to me.
This is a good time for advice. Lord knows I need it!
echez
So many choices to make, so many things to consider.
No one here to understand. No one here to realise that beneath everything is just a girl.
Who wandered into wrong room at the wrong time. Who impressed he world with her stories of way and wonder.
My silent Philosophy of life is that if I think about it constantly and make my every move towards my goal. Sooner or later I'm going to get there.
I have been offered a position with a more attractive income, still technical, but a little out of engineering scope. Not much career advancement available. Reputible multinational company. Not engineering position.
My current company is showing advancement, it's getting bigger, and I am playing a part. They are also sending me for a half business, half pleasure trip to the US. There is opportunity for career advancement in this company, to a certain limit. Many new projects in which I can play a major role - maybe. Hopefully they wont keep me stagnant.
A major American company is contemplating whether they want to hire me, attractive position, attractive future benifits and salary increment, start salary almost the same mediocre amount I get now. More challenging job, need brains for this one. Perhaps I need to use some of it anyhow.
*sigh* Which is the wisest decision?
There is no wisest decision. I chose each and everyone of the jobs above, there's no deciding on the one I like best. I like them all. They all have their pros and cons.
Seems like they're all equally good. What should I do?
Daaaaaaaaaadddyyy!!!!!Heeeeeelp!!!!
Thing about asking my dad is that he will not advise, he will dictate. Nevertheless, his advice is important to me.
This is a good time for advice. Lord knows I need it!
echez
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